Its Been A While

Here I am again. A lot has happened in the last couple of months. Sarah got Sealed to her parents for time and all eternity. This has been such a joy to my heart, granted there is always a little piece of me wishing her here with me but i think thats only human. Life down here in Az has been good to me, very hot, but very good. In the time since I last wrote and now I have had a boyfriend and broke up with him. I don't know if it just cause i wasn't ready or if Heavenly Father was telling me hes not the one but it just didn't work out. I feel badly for this cause he is truly an amazing man, he just deserves something other than me. Something better suited to him.
I have also started going to a Birth Moms group. I am also having mixed feelings about this. I know its good for me but I have found it to be much harder on me than I thought it would be. I think some times Im not just fooling the world but Im fooling me too cause Im afraid to handle what is truly laying in my heart. I don't know for sure but I do know that Heavenly Father knows what I can handle and I just have to be faithful and prayerful to him. He never let me down before, hes not gonna let me down now either. He loves me, and I know that with all my heart.